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One Foot After The Other

I am never going to be a good runner. This is a fact I have been certain of my whole life, and as yet there's been no evidence to prove otherwise. But I am running.
One of my bigger flaws is that of the classic academic over-achiever: I am bad at being bad at things. When you're used to holding yourself to massively high standards, and usually, used to reaching them, it can be incredibly difficult to motivate yourself to do something new. I have a good memory; I am good at writing; I'm a strong empath and I always try my best to help people; I'm focused and have an eye for detail; I am good at making music. These are things I know. Within these things, I am comfortable. 
As a result, I set the bar of my ability to learn (and, really, to master) any new things, way too high. I expect more of myself than it's possible for me to give in the time I allow and, when it feels as though I'm failing, I admit defeat, submit to self-loathing, and give up. 
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